My Twin Soul On The Other Side

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I don’t need or want fame, popularity, clout, your money, or your opinions. I won’t sell out or “sell my soul” because I respect my journey. This blog is sharing my experiences with having a twin soul on the other side. All I want to do is help those who may be dealing with the same things.

Special note: I am very well aware of how I sound (“crazy”) or whatever. This is totally fine because I once was a skeptic (my how the tables turn) and very ignorant myself so I don’t expect people to understand or believe me. However I do not tolerate rudeness or unsolicited advice especially from someone who doesn’t know me as a friend. Please understand that this is my blog and my experiences. If it doesn’t resonate with you then it doesn’t. Move on with your life and forget this blog.

Our Theme Song…

Here is a list of probably helpful links on some topics that makes it easy to navigate the blog should there be any topic you care to read up on.

Didn’t think I’d have to say this:

The highest form of ignorance is to reject something you know NOTHING about.

Preface - Kind of an additional disclaimer (updated 2020).

Introduction - The backstory.

About me - basic info about myself. Proof I’m related to Ramesses III (grandfather) My life as a new mom.

A Marriage Between Love & Logic

Pendulum Work - Recommended way to communicate with your TF not alive safely. I recommend this kit and book.

How you can ensure you’ll be together

Confidence in my journey - Why I don’t care if Erik is my TF (or not).

Avoiding Arrogance - Don’t be a know-it-all because we all don’t.

Have a TF on the other side? - Words of advice from a veteran.

Living in your TF’s Memory - Suggestions on how you can help the planet raise it’s vibrations with love.

Fear, the basis of misery - Misery loves company. Dont let your fear and fears of others fuck you up when your TF isn’t here.

Found out your TF may not be? - Having a dead TF is difficult, made more difficult when you find or feel you may be wrong.

Escaping confirmation bias - When having a TF not on this plane.

Guardians Of The Four Realms (aka “Home”) - 

A lot of detail about our “Home” and what I’ve learned and still learning about it.

Galactic Guardians aka Incarnated Gods

Chariot Of The Gods

God

Saints

Starseeds

Vanessa aka “A”

Spiritual Work - 

Stuff we have worked on together resulted in growth and understanding. This is the bulk of our stuff and other things I’ve learned.

Archangels

Archangel Michael

Archangel Raphael

Ascension

Reincarnation

Past Life aka Parallel-Self

Spirit Spouse

Channeling Erik <<< All about my TF

Birthday Letter - The actual handwritten letter HERE.

Lessons - Valuable things I’ve learned during the course of this journey, –Work in progress as I have to dig through old posts.

Years -

Important details, events or situations happening in that time.

2007

2008

2009

2010

2012

Misc. -

Just stuff of not as much importance and shit.

My life - Shit about me; pictures and performances/SoundCloud

Pregnancy - First time ever pregnant; a journey over the 9 months.

My son, Ricky - Ups and downs of first time parenting. My son is my world.

Me and Rick - Shinnanagins me and my partner do or get into. The towns most annoying couple.

Food porn - I am a graduated chef from Le Cordon Bleu. Sometimes I post my food and recipes. Since graduation, my love for cooking has diminished and have not worked professionally in a long long time.

RIP - Late friends who I was really close with and miss dearly. Posts dedicated to Matt , Alex , Steve, and Odin (my cat).

Fandoms - shit I like or am a fan of.

Bass playing - Covers and practices.

Vlogging / Videos - Video logs

Gamer Tags - Because I game about 80% of my life.

Questions/Answers - People have asked, and I answered.

Twin Flame Movies - Movies I’ve seen that generally have the twin flame vibe. Very few exist.

Memes

Artwork - Mostly flowers because that’s all I’ve been drawing since I was a kid but they are pretty like the ones decorated on this blog.

Hilarious

Cat-turd-day (caturday) - Pictures of my cat(s).

Astral Home - A duplicate build of the place I go to when I talk to Erik and my guides in The Sims 4.

Our Playlist - YouTube Playlist (public)

Dreams - A collection of dreams leading up to this spiritual journey where Erik was mostly present.

Conversations - A few logs of channelings here and there with Erik, god, angels and guides.

Haters - A collection of obvious trolls, and bad actors. I don’t put up with bullies and I enjoy calling them out.

My Intuitive Blog and Reviews / Feedback - I am a Tarot Reader and Channeler.

- Hadassah Monique

Other Tumblr blogs:

TheStonedPriestess.Com @the-stoned-priestess Intuitive blog where I offer free full-length card readings. Please do not ask me on this blog!

@bhagdadbarbie my regular blog outside of spiritual or esoteric shit. Random thoughts, social commentary, and shit posts.

Other addresses registered to this blog: flameontheotherside.tumblr.com (main), myflameontheotherside.com, flameontheotherside.com, and flameontheotherside.wordpress.com

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You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain (you never saw me)

And now I cry

In the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

-Kelly Clarkson, Because Of You

What’s erie about this part is I felt it in my soul when I sang it shortly after Erik’s death. When I sang it on stage I knew for me most of this song had a deeper meaning which I didn’t really understand. I was grieving and didn’t really know for sure why. Just felt it “was over”.

flameontheotherside:

I’m….. PREGNANT!

Before anyone gets excited, this is the second time I’ve gotten a positive result. Only this time the line is very noticeable where the other time it was barely there. However I’m confused; since I’ve stopped taking my birth control pills two months ago I’ve only have had one period and it was so light idk if I could even call it that. Then got my blood tested which came out to be negative. Since then I’ve not had my period.

Now, I did acid 3 weeks ago (if you have ever done acid before you know what I mean) and my boobs started hurting a little around that time and has been hurting here and there. More so since last week. Normally they hurt a week before my period so I took the test (6 days sooner test) and did it twice resulting in two positives. I’ve sent and email including the pictures if my tests asking for an appointment. Unfortunately I won’t see my Dr for a while and it’s actively pissing me off because I have so much anxiety.

Those are the tests I took last week. I’m contemplating on going to urgent care or the hospital to get another test done just because my anxiety over this is so bad. Like I want to have a kid and I’m at a point in my life now where financially it’s feasible and very doable.

What does this mean for Erik and I?

Well of course Erik will be a guardian! He’s offered to introduce me to the spirit of my unborn child but I’m not quite ready yet. I think when I know for certain this is a for sure deal then I’ll feel a little more comfortable but I wouldn’t mind a dream visitation.

For now I’m not drinking but I’m still smoking weed. I’m also eating more fruits and veggies. Also I’ve had to stop taking some if my meds….🙃 This is going to be a nightmare. Without my meds or meds that work I can’t concentrate which means I won’t be able to hear Erik properly, or use my intuition. I’ll be in a foggy hell until I can get on meds that work and not harm the baby.

I’m a little excited. My mom is freakishly excited. Like it’s kind of annoying because she’s been wanting a grandchild for a while and I’m like the only one of my siblings that wants kids and is financially stable. Odd because my twin brother and his hubby have careers and a whole house and yet they aren’t quite there yet. I guess being in disability has it’s advantages.

😘💕 Well I need to rest, good night!

1 Year Ago…

Wow! Time flies. He’s 5 months old, almost a full 6 months. Okay not almost but 3 weeks to go! That’s like half a year old.

Ricky is sleeping on his Naptime right now. He’s so cute!

Don’t worry about the room temp. We have two fans on him in his room. He’s fine!

I just still can’t believe how a year ago I found out I was pregnant. Would I do it again? Probably not. The baby\infant stage is hard. I hate that people have such strong opinions about having a single child. The birthing process was also bad after a real shitty 3rd trimester. Before that, my pregnancy was smooth. So I doubt that being pregnant a second time is going to happen and that I’ll keep it should it happen accidentally.

I’d be more willing to foster or adopt an older child older than 12 months old. That’s just how I feel. I don’t need any comments about it, it’s not for debate.

😘💕 Have a wonderful weekend y'all!

Originally posted by sub-zero-47

I’m quitting my job. They obviously don’t want me there, postpartum anxiety is bad and I hate the sound of anything that sounds like gunshots because it keeps reminding me of how Erik died.

People misunderstand me and it seems like it’s for the purpose of their ego. It must make them feel so much better to not be socially retarded or deal with a mood disorder. Today I felt like total shit not having adequate sleep. Ricky sleeps fine at least. Oh and everyone else. I feel like my anxiety must be invalid because of it. I feel invalid because of the fucking bullying.

I feel invalid in everyway.

My whole life I’ve dealt with it. It never ends and no one has the gumption to explain to me how I can change or what I said that made people act a certain way to me. I confronted one of the managers and of course I feel gaslit. Things got worse after that. It feels like they are trying everything they can to get me to quit! Which makes sense because then I wouldn’t qualify for unemployment. I don’t care about unemployment. All I ever wanted in my life was to FEEL accepted and I just can’t get it.

Called corporate, left a message. There’s no point staying there. I’ve had several panic attacks. They win. The atmosphere is so bad that I can’t last another day. My postpartum anxiety and depression on top of everything else is bad enough. Last night I thought about killing myself and I’m going to flush my Klonopin down the drain. I have to stay alive. I can’t let people hurt me into oblivion. Like I actually want to live. But why do ppl want me to suffer is so beyond me and I really wish people would be honest without making me beat myself up over it. Actually I am beating myself up over it.

It’s my 6 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Oh shit I really must have lost track and don’t math. Here I thought I’ve been at this 7 or 8 years roflmao. 🤣 I’ve have this blog since 2017 so yeah this checks out. Idk how to go back and edit all those posts where I calculated wrong so here’s 🍻 to looking like an idiot as if I don’t already.

I’m going back to sleep. Will write more later…